heys. there will be a class gathering the following saturday. those who are free and can turn up, pls tell me asap. further details have yet to be confirmed cos i need to know how many pple are going. thanks. =)

posted by pam @ 3:17 PM 0 comments

heys..!! im finally back to update. well this week has been really tiring but fun. i make many new friends but not as close with my gang. =x nevertheless, i still love the orientation and my dwelling, ICENI..!!! i really like my OGLS cos' they are really enthu and yet so caring and kind. they kept asking us to drink water and rest more. and even told us that's is okie not to win in the games cos' most imptly, we shld enjoy ourselves.
anyway, a week of fun is over and it's time to study. well, im going to be in the same class with my mei again. i initially was strongly against this idea of being the same class for like 13 years. but hey, it's still not bad to have some accompany rite? hahax. anyway there's another pair of twins in the next class. so qiao rite? hahax.
well, during this whole week, i really miss xinmin and 4e3'04. how i wish i can be with my class again. those days we had in the class. the cosy corner. my table. the teachers. the canteen food. the toilets. the hall. everything over at xinmin (sengkang). i guess everybody is feeling the same way too. school-sick bahs.

just like birds in the skies,
i would hope to be close to you,
but no matter how close i am to you,
there is just this one thing that keeps me away,
your heart,
the further you are from me,
the nearer i want to be to you,
but the nearer i am to you,
the further you are from me,
i can't forget the past,
and i can't go back to the past to change the things which should not have happened,
i do not have magic powers to change the past,
the more i wanted to,
the more it would haunt me,
but i do know that i have the power to change the future,
to change the way i look at you,
to change the way i think and miss you,
to finally let go of you and our past,
i know it would be hard,
it must be hard so that i would never take the past to the future,
i would not say i would try or i would do my best,
i would tell myself,
i must do it,
it's now or never,
if not then when?
things would drag on and on and on,
it's like a neverending story,
and so from this moment on,
i shall look high up into the sky and tell myself that,
just like the birds in the sky,
i am going to look far and fly high instead of flying close to you,
i promise...

shld i be the birds and look frm afar?
wld i feel better this way?

anyway, to those who are concern abt me, dun worry. i will be okie. just be my side to give me courage to carry on with my life. thanks for being there on thursday. thanks for tat drawing of urs, krystal. im really v touched. thanks huiying for the listening ear and tissues. thanks kailuen for the advice. thanks mei for just being there for me. thanks weiliang for tat pack of tissues. thanks sharon for hearing me out.

pls dun make empty promises. it's really very hurtful.

posted by pam @ 12:59 PM 0 comments

well, tomorrow will be a start of new beginning. although im very relunctant to move on with my life, i know tat i should be strong. i will miss u guys a lot when im in ajc, esp sharon and him. hmm. well, im not gonna be sad anymore. =) i love u guys.!!!!!!!
anyway, take care everybody and keep in touch. and have fun tomorrow..

pls keep to your promise tat u will never let go.

posted by pam @ 7:32 PM 0 comments

to him:

heyx. a new year. a new beginning. i know 2004 has been a very tough year for us. after going through so much, we still are facing so many difficulties. if u believe in ourselves, im confident that things will work out for both of us. anyway, thanks for all you have done for me.
thanks for all the sacrifices u made. thanks for the understanding you gave. thanks for the care and concern u showered on me. thanks for all the treats u have given. thanks for all your presents. thanks for those moments.
i know sometimes u blame me for not being the perfect enough. i, myself, know that im not good enough. im really sorry. i just seek for ur forgiveness. even though im not good enough, i hope i have given u happy memories, just like you have given me too. sad memories maybe more than the happy ones but at least there are happy ones rite?
till now, i still can't accept the fact that we are going to different junior colleges and i duno how long i need to accept it. i just can't imagine going to school without the familiar presence of u. can't imagine not being able to turn behind to see u. can't imagine not asking help from you, regarding schoolwork. can't imagine not seeing you five days every week.
for all the mistakes that i have done, please forgive me. forgive me for not being understanding enough. forgive me for hurting u. forgive me for making u angry. forgive me for not being perfect.
well, i duno wat 2005 holds for both of us. but im praying that we will not forget each other, keep in touch and meet each other as often as possible. have faith in yourself that we can do it. i will never give up hope unless i receive some bad news from u.
krystal told me that frogs don't fly n im believe in her. i really going to miss u a lot, a lot. please do take care over at nyjc and study really hard there. dun slack anymore le and study hard. work hard towards ur dreams. i will always behind u to support u. im still carryin hope tat we will end up in the same jc.
2 years. pls wait for me. be'cos i will.

posted by pam @ 1:57 AM